I can't stop thinking about you

wouldnt sky be prettier if light of civilization goes off for couple of mintues?

yea, second time in year or so, i was playing badminton with rainbow.  i had thought of the relationship with rainbow, do i have to start out as perfect as it could be?  it just too much trouble, wast of time and opportunity.  let it go with the flow, and face her with me as normal guy.  perfection doesnt exit as i had notice for a long long time.  however, the way i act in front of the girls i like are not only naive but stupid at the same time.  acting cool would get you anywhere, open your heart and your mind.  why do you care about what others think of you.  stop building up barriers, stop keeping people away from you.  should start learning how to compliement others instead of being an ass.  my cousin is right, if you dont have the potental to be cool, then stop acting cool.  charm and niceness to girl are more important.  stop with your silkly pride, girls dont come toward you automactically.  no wonder no girls like me, no wonder they always wanted to hit me every time they saw me.  one thing that is important for me to keep in mind is that, be your self, dont mind what others might say, and hold on to the opportunity that you have.

again, after basktball game yesterday, i suddenly realize i cant depend on anyone but myself.  how naive am i to expect others to go easy on me.  this is the real world, people take things seriously.  the only way to survive in this realistic unreal world is to constantly self training.  dont ever expect others to give you a break, dont even think about it, people dont offer second chance.  if you miss the opportunity, it takes more effort to get another one.